Guilty!

She is gone. It is my guilt. He knows it. He does no reproaches to me. But he is furious. Will he say a word? No.

These are the thoughts which go through my head. I’m sitting in my study. I am never here. Now I am. It stinks of smoke and the ashtray is full. And I am depressed.

Ann is gone. I should be lucky… I went to her, shouted at her, she should keep out of our life. She was furious and argued some bad things. For example, to me it would not be about Andy. I would not love him for a long time any more and only use him.

My reaction was shining hatred. Meanwhile I know nothing more about that what I have said. I also do not want to know it. Already two hours later she was away.

But before she did, she made clear to me that she loves him really. Wonderfully. Now I have come again to this annoying point. I am worried. Another woman wants my friend. Why???